Waiting sucks. It’s honestly that plain and simple. It sucks. What also sucks is you could be waiting for multiple things in your life. It doesn’t have to be just one thing you’re waiting for. Are you waiting for someone to come into your life? Are you waiting for a job opportunity to arise? Are you waiting for a baby you’ve been praying for? Are you waiting to get the good news you’ve been hoping for? There are many things we all might be waiting for. Almost 99% of the time waiting for stuff like this is hard. We are impatient. We can tell ourselves all the time that “we’re okay with waiting because I know the wait is worth it.” While that is true, most of the time the wait is SO worth it, it doesn’t make it any less hard during the actual waiting period.
I just recently started a devotional and on the very first day of my devotional, she talks about being in a waiting period in our lives. She refers to it as us in the “waiting room.” Think of how many waiting rooms you have been in in your life. At the dentist, the doctor, the hospital, the salon, etc. There are waiting rooms EVERYWHERE and we all have been in our fair share of waiting rooms. We don’t mind sitting in waiting rooms because we know that our name will eventually get called. We know it’s temporary and we aren’t going to be there forever. Waiting periods in our lives are a little different because we don’t know how long we are going to be sitting in that “waiting room.” It could be for a month, a year, or even a few years. I, for one, get very impatient. It’s even harder when you are sitting there waiting and you are constantly seeing other people getting called and you start to wonder “what about me?” “Did God forget about me?” I have said these exact questions out loud multiple times in my life. I have found that I am in a major time of waiting in my life right now. I don’t think we ever truly get out of the “waiting” period because there always seems to be something that we are waiting for, it just constantly changes. Once God calls our name, for one thing, we want something else and have to wait on that.
There is a difference though. Not everything that we are waiting for is going to come true. God knows our heart and he knows its desires but he also knows what is best for us and if it’s not in HIS plan, it’s not gonna happen. We can try our hardest to make it happen but in the end, it’s not going to work out but it’s always going to be for the best.
I’ll be the first one to tell you, I. HATE. WAITING. I really do. Especially when I feel like I have waited on certain things for YEARS. Do I have to remind myself constantly that when it’s meant to happen it will happen? Yes. Do I kid myself a lot that I’m totally okay with waiting? Oh heck yeah. Do I realize this is what is best for me in my life right now? Yes and I’m so glad. Have you ever pushed through something that was really hard just because you know the outcome is so worth it? When you are at the gym and you have days of soreness when you lift 100+ pounds but then you look in the mirror one day and see your body changing and you think “wow, all that hard work was worth it.” The waiting period is the hard work. We have to push through waiting to get to the other side of the gifts that the Lord will bring our way.
One thing that I have learned during this waiting period in my life is to talk to God about it. I have been talking to him more than I probably ever have before. I’m not saying to talk to him because you’re bored now while you are waiting but now is just as good as any time to just speak to him. I get it. It can be hard. It can be tough and some days you might feel like you are going nowhere. Trust me, I get it. Let me tell you I didn’t expect my life to be like this after graduating from college. There are multiple days where I feel like I have failed. I feel like I am on this never-ending track going in circles. I feel like I am not good enough. That’s when I go to God. I talk to him about everything. I also recently learned in my devotional that during these waiting periods, it’s okay to be frustrated. It’s totally normal and you should allow yourself to feel those feelings of anger and frustration. You don’t have to hide them by saying “I’m angry about this but I guess I am blessed in so many other ways.” Yes, we are all blessed in some ways. We know our blessings but we also go through hard times which we can acknowledge. Don’t beat yourself up when you are frustrated with God. He is our best friend and we all have that best friend who wants us to come to them with the highs AND the lows. He wants to hear them all even if we are angry with him, he will still listen. That’s how amazing He is.
Just the other night I was really angry and frustrated because I felt like God has been skipping over me recently and I felt stuck and was questioning why I was in this season of life. I was crying and yelling at God in my bedroom at 10:00 at night. I was bawling and was asking God so many questions. I know he heard every word I said. Now whether what I want to happen actually does happen, isn’t up to me, it’s up to God because it’s HIS plan, not mine. WHICH IS ONE OF THE HARDEST LESSONS I AM STILL TRYING TO LEARN Y’ALL. It’s something I still struggle with on a DAILY basis and there is so much I wish would happen at this exact moment. If anyone has any tips to get over this a little better than how I am currently doing, help ya girl out.
All in all, we all having waiting periods. Are you currently in a “waiting room?” Are you waiting for something that you’ve been waiting for for a while now? Have you just recently started waiting? Have you talked to God about the struggles you might be going through during this waiting period? How are you dealing with being stuck in a waiting room? Think about these questions and ask them to yourself, even write down your answers if you need to. Just know God sees you. You aren’t sitting in that waiting room all alone even though it might feel like it sometimes. There are more people in there with you than you think. Don’t get discouraged if you find yourself waiting a little longer than other people because once again, it’s his timing and not ours.
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